Saturday, February 7, 2009
Quote of the day - But we can't see him
It snowed a ton last night. It was beautiful enough that after church, the girls violated their tradition of wailing in protest when our answer to, "Where are we going now?" is "Home."
(It's a happy home, really. Mostly. It's just that, not unlike their Mommy, they really like to go and do. And go and do some more.)
But "home" was an acceptable answer today, because there was half a foot of snow to come home to, the first since Christmas Day. It took an hour to track down the snow suits, get the mittens on, find Ashlyn's left boot, take them both off and put socks on, and get out in the fluffy white stuff.
We made a snow man, sat and dined on snow from the porch table, buried a doll inside the snow man to hide it from a bloodthirsty King Herod, and then buried the twins themselves. They stayed buried up to the neck until Ashlyn assured us that Herod was no longer a threat. "Jesus killed him," she said.
"No, Jesus did not kill Herod," I told her.
"Why?" asked Melía.
"That's not how Jesus rolls. He doesn't do the killing thing. He does the loving thing."
"Oh," said Melía.
Maybe it was connected or maybe it wasn't, but some time later, Ashlyn observed this:
"Jesus can see us, but we can't see him. That's magic."
"That's right, Ashie," I said.
"That's not magic," Brielle said. She is quite the demythologizer these days.
But magic or no, Ashlyn was on to something significant, I think. I find fault with myself or with God for my failure to see what I think my eyes of faith should. Maybe it's enough just to be seen.
When you tell my dad, "It's good to see you," he's going to tell you, "It's good to be seen." And he's right.
What if I settled down comfortably into the knowledge that whatever I see or don't see, God sees me? What if that paradox moved from my pile of annoyances to my temple of cherished mysteries?
What if it is magic?